Tightrope Walking?

Have you ever felt that you keep stumbling and failing the Lord with the way perhaps that you react to people and situations?  I know I have felt that way on several occasions, and never more so than the time that I was going through the fiery furnace of my faith walk when treacherous traitorous words and actions abounded on all sides.

I will share a short article I wrote about that time, in the hope that it encourages you to keep on going with the Lord even when you feel that you have perhaps failed Him again.   

An Emotional Roller-Coaster

I was finding that life was certainly a roller-coaster of emotions.  Up one day and down another.  Happy and coping at one moment then feeling in the pit of despair and anguish at another.  Then with all the anger issues constantly assailing me from different angles I fell briefly into a kind of despair that my life was now so difficult, and the path was as narrow as a tightrope and as difficult to balance on as such!  Help!  How was I to continue pleasing the Lord when I truly felt like I kept falling off this tightrope?  I was now imagining myself in a crumpled heap on the ground, as I had once again fallen off this imaginary tightrope after my latest angry outburst!

And then the Lord corrected my thinking by showing me that this was not true at all. 

He is my good heavenly Father and He revealed that just as a good parent’s hands are hovering to catch and set back on its feet the newly walking baby, so too my Heavenly Father was hovering to pick me up when I fell.  And He also helped me to understand that it was not a tightrope but simply a “narrow and difficult path” as always for the Christian.  It helped me to substitute the female word “woman” in place of the bible’s “man” to really bring home to me the meaning of Psalm 37:23-24.

“The steps of a good woman are ordered by the Lord, and He delights in her way.

Though she fall, she shall not be utterly cast down;

for the Lord upholds her with His hand.”

What a treasure this scripture was to me at that moment.  The Lord gave me such delight in understanding His loving, tender care for me.  And that this care and love was still there towards me even in my moments of failure.  Even as I occasionally lost my self-control, I was not left crushed by my sin but now I was comforted as I realised that when I sinned, and then realised it, I would turn for God’s forgiveness and knew that He granted it to me.

I found the following scriptures also corrected my faulty thinking in this matter and could see that the Lord was guiding me and keeping “my feet from falling”.

“Unless the Lord had been my help,

my soul would soon have settled in silence.

If I say, “My foot slips,” Your mercy, O Lord, will hold me up.

In the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul”    Psalm 94:17-19

“For You have delivered my soul from death.

Have you not kept my feet from falling,

That I may walk before God in the light of the living?”      Psalm 56:13 

I was now greatly helped to realise how close the Lord was to me and how His heart and desires were for me to help me in this process of dealing with anger, forgiveness and coping with my changing life.  I was not alone and certainly I was not on a tightrope as previously imagined! 

“The Lord upholds all who fall, and raises up all who are bowed down.” 

Psalm 145:14 

 “The Lord lifts up the humble…”

Psalm 147:6 God is so good,
God is so good,
God is so good,
He’s so good to me!

He cares for me,
He cares for me,
He cares for me,
He’s so good to me!

I love Him so,
I love Him so,
I love Him so,
He’s so good to me!

 

May God bless you as you seek to draw closer to Him

Helen

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